Thursday, October 25, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Tell Molly good job with helping her Mama with being on the news, she did a lovely job and sweet Molly and Little Reese were on the news as well. You amazing little babies brought some beautiful people together. You are all so important and loved. Here is the video link way to go!! http://www.king5.com/community/making-a-difference/Molly-Bears-help-mend-mothers-broke-hearts-140236053.html
Thursday, February 16, 2012
This year you will be turning 5. I know the things I should be doing with you now, talking about making pretty tutu's and baking in the kitchen and making you little dollies, going to ballet and play dates with friends, and we can't do those things. At some point I would love to stop playing that game. The game where I am looking at you as things "should have" been and not just look at them as they are.
You my dear are the single most beautiful thing in my life, why should I want to change that or you. You have done more for me and through me than anyone else, I do have a strange peace about how things are, and for that peace I feel guilty.
Things we have done
1. Bring awareness to stillbirth, by simply speaking.
2. Brought 2 healthy alive rainbows into this world.
3. Been a loving support to MANY mommies.
4. remember other babies
5. Fill arms with weighted teddy bears (500 or so)http://mollybears.com/
I am proud to have you as mine, and right now, today, I wouldn't change a thing about you.
Love you baby girl
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
You have so many people that love you, and cannot wait to meet you one day. You are going to be one popular little girl up in Heaven, once we all meet you there. Make sweet Ally a little something special this weekend, for it is her 5th birthday, her Mama misses her deeply. Her little rainbow Andy loves his big sister and isn't sure how she is going to eat her birthday cake. I bet you eat Angel food cake in heaven with the BEST strawberries.
I have so many friends here on earth that are missing their little babies, it hurts watching such heart ache. I feel there is a bigger purpose here for me, I just hope this vision and desire in my heart can come into being. You have been in Glory for 4 years 4 months and 10 days (give or take a day), someday's my shoulders hurt from carrying you with me each place I go, and wherever I am. Someday's I just don't get it! You know little one really what the heck is OUR purpose, you and me, Esther? Am I living life like I should be for you, for God, for your siblings, for our family?
I LOVE YOU MY FOREVER BABY xoxo
or would you call me Mama (like Galilee and Felicity do)